Sorry I haven't posted in a while but boy oh boy has my life been a roller coaster. Recently I had two good childhood friends pass away and work has been insane but I thought that if I sat down to write a little something tonight that maybe it could help my broken heart heal.
I am the girl that usually has a ton of energy and I run around like I am on fire. I am a lot to handle and I only get crazier the longer you know me. You either love me or hate me, there is no in between. People always seem to be shocked at whatever comes out of my mouth and hell, most of the time I am too. My mind constantly runs a million miles an hour and most of the time I just want to shut it off because it is just to much to handle. Imagine this, there are 500 web browsers open and every time you close one 10 more open. Every one of those browsers has a virus and you have no clue where that music is coming from. Sounds confusing right? Well folks, that's my brain. When I am tired, I crash and I crash hard. These last few weeks I have just been so damn tired. When I am around sad and mourning people I literally become drained both physically and emotionally. It comes from me trying so damn hard to make everyone around me happy. Call me crazy, call me an empath, call it whatever you want but damn it is exhausting.
I am also the girl that would do anything in the world to make even a stranger smile. I like to stop and talk to homeless people and get them food when I can. I try to remember everyone's birthday and even their animals birthdays! I am a firm believer that a little bit of kindness can go a very long way. I try to make it a point to let others know that they are appreciated and loved whenever I can.
I know this is not one of my usual posts of all laughter and joy but I do feel that it is important to sometimes take a moment to love others and yourself. IT IS OK TO TAKE TIME FOR SELF CARE AND REFLECTION. If you are not able to take care of yourself then you cannot possibly take care of others the way that you want to. Please be safe, be kind and treat others the way you want to be treated.
If you need help then do not hesitate to reach out. My phone is always on and my door is always open. There are other resources as well if needed and I will list a couple below.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255
Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration 1-800-662-4357 (HELP)
Safe Helpline for sexual assault 1-877-995-5247
As always, just love one another-